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I realised time moves very fast dese days. I could only recall the first time i started working and now its been 14 months. Haiz.... I feel i am missing on alot of things. I feel i lead a mundane average girl's life for the past 1 year. Its just work and work, boyfren and family... Hmm.. But, at least i have a life... Right?
I'm bored. Bored of working. Bored of doin anything after work. In fact, i hardly have time for anyting after work. My eye bags are visible now due to late night outs or sleeping pretty late due to my current addiction, the famous korean drama, Boys over Flowers! I'm done watching them and now, trying hard to sleep early. At least its working pretty well for my eye bags.. hehe..
Basically, life's been hectic for me. Work is CRAZY.... there are times that i miss school, but as soon as that pay is in my bank, i realised that its well worth it. When pay day comes, i becomes clothes/bags/shoes crazy... at times, toiletries & accessories- crazy... haha... I know that i've made a decision to start schooling again next year. But, at the same time i realised, my aunt will have to work again. And finding job aint easy for someone of her age and education. She wouldn't have to work if i were to continue working.... I can pay the house bills.... I wanted to work full time, find another normal office hrs job and school part time, but both my mom n my aunt are against it. They want me to concentrate fully on school. I know i can work and school part time, but they jus won't allow it. another blank space for me to fill it up. Life's never gonna be the way i planned..... arghhh!!!
I'm bored. Bored of working. Bored of doin anything after work. In fact, i hardly have time for anyting after work. My eye bags are visible now due to late night outs or sleeping pretty late due to my current addiction, the famous korean drama, Boys over Flowers! I'm done watching them and now, trying hard to sleep early. At least its working pretty well for my eye bags.. hehe..
Basically, life's been hectic for me. Work is CRAZY.... there are times that i miss school, but as soon as that pay is in my bank, i realised that its well worth it. When pay day comes, i becomes clothes/bags/shoes crazy... at times, toiletries & accessories- crazy... haha... I know that i've made a decision to start schooling again next year. But, at the same time i realised, my aunt will have to work again. And finding job aint easy for someone of her age and education. She wouldn't have to work if i were to continue working.... I can pay the house bills.... I wanted to work full time, find another normal office hrs job and school part time, but both my mom n my aunt are against it. They want me to concentrate fully on school. I know i can work and school part time, but they jus won't allow it. another blank space for me to fill it up. Life's never gonna be the way i planned..... arghhh!!!
- whEr i'M at?:Work
Another month of fasting... actually, ramadhan started on 19th Aug... so, ard 2 more weeks to Hari Raya!! Yippee... And i've yet to buy my own family baju kurung... Goin simple dis yr.. Strictly baju kurong.... =) Light Purple is my mom's choice dis yr n guess wat? Dats the colour trend for this yr raya.. haha.... Can u imagine, evry yr for hari raya, dere's a color trend?? hahaa..... ok, went to Geylang wif him on the previous Sat cuz we were yearning for AYAM PERCIK!!!! B4 dat, we break our fast at HJH ESAH at Bussorah Street... Dis time dis yr, Bussorah street wasn't reali crowded wif ppl. I gues, economic downturn la.... We decided to catch FD4 on 3D... but, ARggghhh! left 1st 2 rows frm the front.., So, Geylang was our next choice.... Choice of Baju Kurung was not in a big variety... But, i found my baju alr... actuali 2 bajus... hmm.. hav to choose btwn one.... the 48 or 68 bucks...
anyways, i was on mc for 7 goddamn days the week b4 my fasting. time past by realli, realli fast... haha... i was on the bed for 3 days, aft wich, went to a private doc n i finally get to get up the next day.. H1N1 suspect.. hahaha... but, i dont have la k... wen i came back the following week, work was hell as my partner was on mc for 7 days... haha... had no frigging idea wat was gg on the previous wk, got scolded by cust and my boss... i cried really hard on fri... cuz the stress was killing me.. hahaha.. but, aft dat, i became a super woman again!!!
Haha... Decided to post this SAVED entry dat i couldn't recall typing. *shrugs
anyways, i was on mc for 7 goddamn days the week b4 my fasting. time past by realli, realli fast... haha... i was on the bed for 3 days, aft wich, went to a private doc n i finally get to get up the next day.. H1N1 suspect.. hahaha... but, i dont have la k... wen i came back the following week, work was hell as my partner was on mc for 7 days... haha... had no frigging idea wat was gg on the previous wk, got scolded by cust and my boss... i cried really hard on fri... cuz the stress was killing me.. hahaha.. but, aft dat, i became a super woman again!!!
Haha... Decided to post this SAVED entry dat i couldn't recall typing. *shrugs
- whEr i'M at?:Work
Finally, i've found time to type in my journal.... its been like decades since i post an entry... bz, bz... woot!! wondering wats up w my subject??? well, i've been contemplating alot for the past few months(MonthS! nt weeks!!) abt my continuation of studies... yap, i'm back to studying again... its been omost a yr since i lost touch of schooling life, n i miss it badly... haiz.... n yap, i've been contemplating weder i should take full time or part time studies... aft tinking for long, i've decided to go with part time. i know my werking hrs prohibits the fact that i shld tk up part time studies!! hell, i told myself n told my close colleague dat if my company cant be flexible with my timing for my studies, i'll quit n look for other job that will be flexible... ok, 1 problem solved! my next prob wld be, what course.... as i thought abt this, lotsa tings came to my mind in an instant.. Mass Com, Engrg, Business Mgmnt, Hr Mgmnt, Logistics and the list go on and on... U noe wats the one oder course that struck an interest in me oder den of coz, tourism mgmnt? Psychology... Yap, Psychology did struck an interest in me aft i've heard of the way they work and analyse a person's mind... I heard frm Him cuz his fren is a psychologist... and of course, aft watching the very 1st episode of The Mentalist on Ch5 and the next few episodes aft dat.... i was definitely in awe of Ptrick Jane; at the way they tink n crack a person's mind an understanding that particular person jus by asking a simple question... therefore, i've made up my mind to tk up a degree in this course.... Degree in Psychology and prolly a double degree in Business Mgmnt and Psychology aft dat.... and outcome of school?? haiz... i tot of taking UniSIM cuz 40% subsidy.... Local UNIs get 40% subsidy which is great right?? but, i checked out School of Mgmnt where Edwin Nortin Uni is at, they offer a good degree in Pyschology.. Heard gd reviews abt it! But, its not a Local Uni wich equates to no subsidy! whereby 1 credit unit wld cost $1600 and thru'out my course, i have to tk 16 CU which equals to $25,600!!! Looks like if i plan to tk dis up, I mayb tk up a loan frm bank.. the interest free study loan! Hmmm.. i'm still browsing thru the diff UNIs avail... any recommendations? do u tink my plan has any loopholes that i'm unaware of and mebe u cld b kind enuf to point it to me?
Yeap.. I, have made my Decision and i've got an OUtcome but not the whole outcome... still contemplating abt the last part....
I'm starting to love the way i planned out my life! although, i know its gonna be tough but like my mom oways say, u wouldn't get the best if there is no suffering in the beginning!
Yeap.. I, have made my Decision and i've got an OUtcome but not the whole outcome... still contemplating abt the last part....
I'm starting to love the way i planned out my life! although, i know its gonna be tough but like my mom oways say, u wouldn't get the best if there is no suffering in the beginning!
- whEr i'M at?:Singapore, Singapore
ok... i've promised that i'll post abt tis particular incident dat happened to me n him, i tink on the previous sat at harbourfront....
n so... the story starts by me meeting him aft werk n we dcided to go vivo, to eat n chill out cuz we havent done in dat in a long2 time... we were walking n walking n my bag was pretty heavy! i had no freaking idea y my bag frm werk is particularly heavy dat day... plus i feel really2 sleepy n exhausted.. all dat brings out my grumpy side... well, we dcided to pack sum food n eat at e rooftop of vivo while njoying e nite... so.. he felt like having KFC.. n so we went to the harbourfront outlet cuz vivo doesnt have one, rite? we reached the outlet n we were jus tinking of getting e couple meal.. so, i decided to ask e person over the counter:
Me: "Auntie, is the couple meal available?"
Auntie: "First of all, i'm not an auntie.. secondly, sorry there's no more couple meal"
Could u jus imagine my shock! ok.. for 3 secs i was jus practically staring at him, yap, its an uncle... but, i could swear, dat hair n face n voice is so much alike an auntie...
Sweets: "ok.. Sorry ah, sir... Can we look at the menu first??"
That "auntie" nodded!
Sweets: "Can i have this set... Can i have breast for the chicken?
"Auntie": "ok.. sorry sir.. i cant oways give breast to every customer dat comes in and request for it. my manager says i cant giv evrytime the customers request."
-It was pretty obvious uncle was pissed!
Sweets: "ok.. but hw come wen i go oder outlets, dey oways give me without any kind of respond?"
"Auntie": "This is a new rule already.. Because the tigh and wings are oways leftover.. so, i cant giv u the breast.. sorry ah"
ok.. we just shrug our shoulder n while he took the food, i was telling sweets dat i was damn shock but he's being such a bitch!
he came back w our food..
"Auntie": "ok.. dis time round, i give you the breast.. next week u come, i cant give u already"
-Like as tho i come evry wk!!
we went out n i was telling sweets that i felt so bad...
so, dats my true life story.. jus felt i had to share it w u guys... =)
n so... the story starts by me meeting him aft werk n we dcided to go vivo, to eat n chill out cuz we havent done in dat in a long2 time... we were walking n walking n my bag was pretty heavy! i had no freaking idea y my bag frm werk is particularly heavy dat day... plus i feel really2 sleepy n exhausted.. all dat brings out my grumpy side... well, we dcided to pack sum food n eat at e rooftop of vivo while njoying e nite... so.. he felt like having KFC.. n so we went to the harbourfront outlet cuz vivo doesnt have one, rite? we reached the outlet n we were jus tinking of getting e couple meal.. so, i decided to ask e person over the counter:
Me: "Auntie, is the couple meal available?"
Auntie: "First of all, i'm not an auntie.. secondly, sorry there's no more couple meal"
Could u jus imagine my shock! ok.. for 3 secs i was jus practically staring at him, yap, its an uncle... but, i could swear, dat hair n face n voice is so much alike an auntie...
Sweets: "ok.. Sorry ah, sir... Can we look at the menu first??"
That "auntie" nodded!
Sweets: "Can i have this set... Can i have breast for the chicken?
"Auntie": "ok.. sorry sir.. i cant oways give breast to every customer dat comes in and request for it. my manager says i cant giv evrytime the customers request."
-It was pretty obvious uncle was pissed!
Sweets: "ok.. but hw come wen i go oder outlets, dey oways give me without any kind of respond?"
"Auntie": "This is a new rule already.. Because the tigh and wings are oways leftover.. so, i cant giv u the breast.. sorry ah"
ok.. we just shrug our shoulder n while he took the food, i was telling sweets dat i was damn shock but he's being such a bitch!
he came back w our food..
"Auntie": "ok.. dis time round, i give you the breast.. next week u come, i cant give u already"
-Like as tho i come evry wk!!
we went out n i was telling sweets that i felt so bad...
so, dats my true life story.. jus felt i had to share it w u guys... =)
i donoe weder i shld feel sad or glad...... abt him meeting up a lady for casual lunch... not any lady, mind you.. a lady, he's kept his heart for, for 3 damn yrs.. until he met me, n so he said.. aft dat lunch, he called me saying dat it's gonna b his last lunch wif her cuz she's getting engaged at the end of the yr.. its been awhile since dey chat or sms or call each oder, n out of the blue, he told me he's meeting her for lunch... i swore my smile over the phone became like stunned! mebe dey met to catch up ol' times, i suppose... n the nerve of him to tell me that he did not plan to tel me at first.. i'm glad he did la.. but i'm unhappy.. i donoe y.... mebe cuz i've nt had that trust in him yet. I don tink i cld ever trust a guy's wrds again... the tot of him lying behind my back w/o me knowing a shit abt it jus scares me... it happened to me b4.. i cld be naive sumtimes.. dats y i stand my ground dis time.. cuz dere aint gonna b a 2nd time...
Happy
I'm feeling happy stil.. i noe, i noe.. Get over it!! it happend last wk... haha.. but i cant believe it took me jus once to finally own a license.. i'm so proud of myself.. gave myself a pat on the back while waiting 2 pay for my card wich cost 50 damn bucks.. EXTORTION! well, feeling happy, i dun feel i was ripped off la.. =) well, lemme recount wat happen.. b4 the actual test, i hav a lil' warm up session w one of e instructor dere.. i was damn nervous.. my feet went cold even tho i knew dats jus a warm up... n den e instructor asked, "r u feeling nervous?" n i said ya, very... haha.. he asked me to cool down... n he gave me a lil' boost of confidence by saying "frm my judgement, i can c dat u're a very confident driver.. jus dat dis TP ting make u nervous... calm urself down n say a lil prayer k.. n u'll do fine.." hehe.. nice kan? well, he's an abang.. so, mus b nice to me la.. haha... while waiting for the TP tester to call my name, i was jus sitting dere, trying not to tink abt wat will happen n i tot of his jokes.. n i giggled a bit n dis CHINA woman look at me like i'm crazy.. stupid china... haha... well, luckily dat tester, an uncle, wasnt grouchy or gg thru menopause... he was jus laid back.. n so, i kept telling myself, i hav to hav confidence.. so, we went to the parallel parking 1st.. damn, my nerves got to me n den i hit a pole cuz i was damn nervous.. there goes 4 demerit pts.. n den, evryting went smoothly in the circuit... off to road... i earned 4 more points for failure to conform dafety at my vertical parking and anoder 2 pts for not changing gear... ok.. i earnd 10 demerits pts in all... ok la.. for sum1 who's gone thru 1 1/2 yrs driving, its ok la.. haha... i was damn happy aft he told me i passed n txt evry1 including my mom.. hehe.... i can drive a car.. FINALLY!! wee.. cant wait to rent a car n roam ard in s'pore.....
Envy
I'm feeling envious... i was browsing thru fb..... n saw my sec sch gf's profile... n i viewed her fotos.. wah, she travel alot lei... as i was browsing thru e latest ones, she went HK and den San Fransico n i realised she's an air stewardess!! sum more wif SIA! OMG! funny shit.. she's jus a bit taller den me... ok, i envy her.. cuz she was doin all this shopping at Tiffany & Co., Coach n many more Label houses la.. i'm so jealous! wah, its my dream to travel ard e world.. at that point of time, i tot to myself.. wat if i werk as an air stewardess??? gerek kan..but my height is e prob... haiz... i wish mom would pull me n stretched me wen i was a baby so dat i'll b taller now.. haha.. hmm.. mebe i shld jus try my luck.... shld i?? hmmm....
well, life's like dat.. sum will hav it rough while oders, well, its just not their time.... my sweets, well, he's looking for a FT job rite now n its pretty hard.. pity him... sending resumes n no respond... i jus hope n pray dat he'll go thru this course dat he's gonna hav n get a GOOD job soon aft dat... insyaallah...
- whEr i'M at?:werk
- fEelinG:
complacent
well, i'm saving electricity by entering a few tings in my entry today.. hehe.. actuali, i hav alot on my mind rite now....
1st. TP
haiz.. my TP's on the 29th wich means 15 more days to go... argghhh.. had my 2nd pract for dis mth last mon... e instructor asked me wats my weakness n i hav to say my parking n slope.. i totally forgot how to do my parking aft i'm done w my pract everytime.. well, on mon, i made myself rmbr by jotting down e steps as soon as i reached hm... n he say i hav a habit of not changing gears... "must change even tho u're nearing e traffic lite".. hehe.. BUT, i'm oso xcited to pass dis license cuz i wont hav to spend anymore money... 200 evry month lei.. i spent omost 2K on my license alone.. havent even get a car.. hahaha.. i hope the TP guy wld b nice to me... Guys, pray for me k?? on the 29th, on a Fri.. Pray dat i'll b calm down n do wellll....
2nd. Frens
Frens... i'm missing each n evry1 of u out dere.... jus made plans w jas n ah hui to meet up on the 2nd june.. donoe weder ah hu will b free... bt, jas say ok.. hmm.. her ok is not reali ok la.. haha... later, she forget she gt plans la, dis la.. wat la.. evryting la.. hehe... on mon, i get a chance to tok to toyek.. aft so many2 months... well, he's on holiday dat day.. Vesak day holiday.. gerek kan?? while i'm at werk.. envying him... hmm.. well, we chatted for awhile n he keep asking me abt boyfie.. Kaypoh.. n he askd me y me n yan dint work out.... i guess it wld b all too complicated n weird if we eva bcum a couple.. a crush is fine.. but a couple? i donoe.. he's jus nt expressive abt his feelings n all dat. i do njoy e dates dat we went.. jus dat, mebe its better if we were to find the others as companion.. Love, is weird... hahaha.. well, we r planning for an IMPOSSIBLE meetup.. haha.. y impossible? cuz its reali impossible la.. me, jas and toyek were planning to do like a mass meetup wich is deemed to fail.. hahaha... i jus hope it does la.. ok, i'm being contradicting here.. haha.... =) well, i'm happy for razi too.. cuz he's gt a galfren!!! yippee.. at least it made me feel better to noe he has a gf... cuz he likes to compare e girls he dated last time w me... well, he has plans of being engaged w her nxt yr.. saving money to get engaged nxt yr n the yr aft dat, get married...
3rd. Love
Love.. its omost 5 mths into our r/s.... evryting's gr8 la.... w him, dere's nt much drama..... he is patient w me... hehe.. tanx.. we jus watched e movie, Horsemen last Tues.. ok la... the show is not sumting as i xpected.. but, its gore la.. not to e xtreme gore.. jus gore.. =) aft dat, we had tons of laughter w tears n all dat... haha.. its funny that we behaved like best frens but at the same time holding hands n all.. hehe... its fun being w him.. n i Love Him..... mmmuuaxxxxx..
it seems like i've got tons to tok abt, but dis is all dats on my mind now.. will type more if i found out more abt it... in short, i'm happy for every1 in my life.....
Putri
1st. TP
haiz.. my TP's on the 29th wich means 15 more days to go... argghhh.. had my 2nd pract for dis mth last mon... e instructor asked me wats my weakness n i hav to say my parking n slope.. i totally forgot how to do my parking aft i'm done w my pract everytime.. well, on mon, i made myself rmbr by jotting down e steps as soon as i reached hm... n he say i hav a habit of not changing gears... "must change even tho u're nearing e traffic lite".. hehe.. BUT, i'm oso xcited to pass dis license cuz i wont hav to spend anymore money... 200 evry month lei.. i spent omost 2K on my license alone.. havent even get a car.. hahaha.. i hope the TP guy wld b nice to me... Guys, pray for me k?? on the 29th, on a Fri.. Pray dat i'll b calm down n do wellll....
2nd. Frens
Frens... i'm missing each n evry1 of u out dere.... jus made plans w jas n ah hui to meet up on the 2nd june.. donoe weder ah hu will b free... bt, jas say ok.. hmm.. her ok is not reali ok la.. haha... later, she forget she gt plans la, dis la.. wat la.. evryting la.. hehe... on mon, i get a chance to tok to toyek.. aft so many2 months... well, he's on holiday dat day.. Vesak day holiday.. gerek kan?? while i'm at werk.. envying him... hmm.. well, we chatted for awhile n he keep asking me abt boyfie.. Kaypoh.. n he askd me y me n yan dint work out.... i guess it wld b all too complicated n weird if we eva bcum a couple.. a crush is fine.. but a couple? i donoe.. he's jus nt expressive abt his feelings n all dat. i do njoy e dates dat we went.. jus dat, mebe its better if we were to find the others as companion.. Love, is weird... hahaha.. well, we r planning for an IMPOSSIBLE meetup.. haha.. y impossible? cuz its reali impossible la.. me, jas and toyek were planning to do like a mass meetup wich is deemed to fail.. hahaha... i jus hope it does la.. ok, i'm being contradicting here.. haha.... =) well, i'm happy for razi too.. cuz he's gt a galfren!!! yippee.. at least it made me feel better to noe he has a gf... cuz he likes to compare e girls he dated last time w me... well, he has plans of being engaged w her nxt yr.. saving money to get engaged nxt yr n the yr aft dat, get married...
3rd. Love
Love.. its omost 5 mths into our r/s.... evryting's gr8 la.... w him, dere's nt much drama..... he is patient w me... hehe.. tanx.. we jus watched e movie, Horsemen last Tues.. ok la... the show is not sumting as i xpected.. but, its gore la.. not to e xtreme gore.. jus gore.. =) aft dat, we had tons of laughter w tears n all dat... haha.. its funny that we behaved like best frens but at the same time holding hands n all.. hehe... its fun being w him.. n i Love Him..... mmmuuaxxxxx..
it seems like i've got tons to tok abt, but dis is all dats on my mind now.. will type more if i found out more abt it... in short, i'm happy for every1 in my life.....
Putri
- whEr i'M at?:werk
- fEelinG: cheerful
well, its alr e end of e 1st wk of May... hmmm... 3 more wks, n we r in e mid of the year.. pretty fast huh?? i realised, most of my posts, i would mention the month n be sighing every mth abt how fast time flies... yes, its damn fast n its scary!
i had my practical aft a mth of not having practical, n boy, i was BAD! it was like as tho it was my first time driving.. argghh.. luckily, dint get f**ked frm my instructor.. i was oso nervous la.. cuz dis instructor very garang.. i kena f**k by him before sei for changing lanes abruptly... haiz.. but he seems nice to me dat day... i was so disappointed in myself... i totally forgot my parking!!! wich way to reverse n all dat.. e slope was worst.... i went off the slope w/o fully releasing the brake n e car jus stalled! if it was my TP, i tink i'll b asked to send hm immediately.. putri..putri.. haiz.. nxt time, dis putri is jus gonna get a chauffer for herself... hehe...
tomorow's anoder holiday!! wee.... hehe... cant wait! my whole family is celebrating Advance Mother's Day tml.... yeah, anoder family gathering.. m so looking forward to it... bought my mom a pair of scholl sandals... my 2 aunt's b'dae fall on the same day.. therefore, i got one of dem the same pair of scholl sandals n e oder, jus a small bag for her to bring ard... buying a last min mother's day cake today.... evryting's last min dis mth.... hehe... lazy2 putri.. =)
well, i watched Wolverine yest w my Putra n his frens... hmm.. coincidentally, all of us wore black.. wantd to watch it at Cathay Cine but they dont have Wolverine(hav no idea y), so we watched at PS... 2110 show.. not bad e show... i love the LOve between Logan n his gf.. wher dey live high up in the mountain on a gateau, to b exact, far away frm ppl... hmm... u shld catch it.. i'm nt gonna rant abt e movie dis time.. hehe.. aft dat we sat outside 7-11 and chatted abt the US and wat realli happen on 9/11... wanna noe e oder side of e story?? beep me n ask me out for a drink, n i'll tell u... =) an interesting side of e story dat it nvr crossed my mind abt dat.... n yeah, i'm nt gonna rant abt it in my blog, in case i get caught for voicing out my opinion.... we went hm ard 12++, feeling really2 sleepy.. luckily putra has transport, if nt, i hav no idea hw we r gona get back.. tanx putra for sending me hm even tho u r feeling really2 tired...
2day, i woke up feeling realli2 sleepy.... but, hell, i've to go to work..... hmmm.... well, since i've gt half an hr more b4 i clock out, lemme intro u to one of the best bakery i've been to..*drum roll* 'Provence Bakery & Cafe'.. at West Coast Plaza.. i love their mini croissants wich cost 0.80/ pc.. n their Wassant Choc is soft n simply delicious!! Mozaiku is oso my fave!! i've yet to taste the rest though.. but i must say 5/5 for dis bakery in being affordable n delicious at e same time!... owh, well.. free publicity for Provence Bakery... hmm... i wish i had my own bakery... n mk something similar like dis...
ok, i'm tired frm staring at my comp e whole day.. hmm.. i'm outta here..
adios.. n tkcr allll.... luv u lar..
Putri (hearts) Rusty Knight
i had my practical aft a mth of not having practical, n boy, i was BAD! it was like as tho it was my first time driving.. argghh.. luckily, dint get f**ked frm my instructor.. i was oso nervous la.. cuz dis instructor very garang.. i kena f**k by him before sei for changing lanes abruptly... haiz.. but he seems nice to me dat day... i was so disappointed in myself... i totally forgot my parking!!! wich way to reverse n all dat.. e slope was worst.... i went off the slope w/o fully releasing the brake n e car jus stalled! if it was my TP, i tink i'll b asked to send hm immediately.. putri..putri.. haiz.. nxt time, dis putri is jus gonna get a chauffer for herself... hehe...
tomorow's anoder holiday!! wee.... hehe... cant wait! my whole family is celebrating Advance Mother's Day tml.... yeah, anoder family gathering.. m so looking forward to it... bought my mom a pair of scholl sandals... my 2 aunt's b'dae fall on the same day.. therefore, i got one of dem the same pair of scholl sandals n e oder, jus a small bag for her to bring ard... buying a last min mother's day cake today.... evryting's last min dis mth.... hehe... lazy2 putri.. =)
well, i watched Wolverine yest w my Putra n his frens... hmm.. coincidentally, all of us wore black.. wantd to watch it at Cathay Cine but they dont have Wolverine(hav no idea y), so we watched at PS... 2110 show.. not bad e show... i love the LOve between Logan n his gf.. wher dey live high up in the mountain on a gateau, to b exact, far away frm ppl... hmm... u shld catch it.. i'm nt gonna rant abt e movie dis time.. hehe.. aft dat we sat outside 7-11 and chatted abt the US and wat realli happen on 9/11... wanna noe e oder side of e story?? beep me n ask me out for a drink, n i'll tell u... =) an interesting side of e story dat it nvr crossed my mind abt dat.... n yeah, i'm nt gonna rant abt it in my blog, in case i get caught for voicing out my opinion.... we went hm ard 12++, feeling really2 sleepy.. luckily putra has transport, if nt, i hav no idea hw we r gona get back.. tanx putra for sending me hm even tho u r feeling really2 tired...
2day, i woke up feeling realli2 sleepy.... but, hell, i've to go to work..... hmmm.... well, since i've gt half an hr more b4 i clock out, lemme intro u to one of the best bakery i've been to..*drum roll* 'Provence Bakery & Cafe'.. at West Coast Plaza.. i love their mini croissants wich cost 0.80/ pc.. n their Wassant Choc is soft n simply delicious!! Mozaiku is oso my fave!! i've yet to taste the rest though.. but i must say 5/5 for dis bakery in being affordable n delicious at e same time!... owh, well.. free publicity for Provence Bakery... hmm... i wish i had my own bakery... n mk something similar like dis...
ok, i'm tired frm staring at my comp e whole day.. hmm.. i'm outta here..
adios.. n tkcr allll.... luv u lar..
Putri (hearts) Rusty Knight
- whEr i'M at?:werk
hehe.. i feel good.... hahaha... dat song is ringing in my head now!!
ermmm.. from the last 10 mins, i feel good.. cuz i passed out inspirational quotes for my close colleagues at werk.. looking at their stressed up faces as i passed by their work area, i guess a few words would bring a smile to them.. n so.. Being the sweet putri, i wrote on a few post-it notes quoting--"SMILE! Cuz u'll never know who falling in Love wif that Smile.." n as i passed it to dem n put it rite in front of deir eyes, well not literally, they indeed smile!!! hehe.. n i feel good cuz i made 4 ppl smile today... n a thank u is all i need... =) sweet anot?? sweet rite?? learnt it frm my syg... he wld oways sms me dat weneva he noes i'm stress at werk.. hehe..
well, i took leave yest cuz of sum family probs wich i shan't disclose over my blog... =p hmm.. ard 3, i met up w love... go catch a movie n chill n makan... we watched Friday the 13th.. man, it was gore n totally X-rated la.. omg!! Jason.. could nvr die... he's damn scary la... gg ard killing ppl cuz dey were in his "area", Camp Crystal Lake..well, if u watched the 1st version of Friday the 13th.. u wld noe hw the story goes.. well, if u donoe, i could tell u a summary rite here, rite now.. cuz i've gt time to spare... =) hmm.. started w dis boy called Jason who were born with a disfigured face.. kids at skool oways tease him n all.. n so, one day, the skool decided to bring the kids to camping at Camp Crystal Lake.. they had break time n the kids kept on teasing him n making fun of him.. the student councillors were nearby but they ignored the kids' teasing n all dat.... n so, the kids pushed him to the lake n he drowned w/o the councillors saving him cuz they din't realised that... Jason's mom learnt abt hw he drowned and she went to Camp Crystal Lake w a machete n killed omost every student counsillor.. except for one who beheaded Jason's mom b4 she got killed... unknown to her, Jason came frm the dead n saw dat incident n his mom said--"take revenge for mommy!!".. n so, Jason became the unbeatable "hero".. hehe.. i guess dats abt it la.. 2 watch the current Friday the 13th, catch it at the movie la dey...
hmmm.. i'm nvr gonna watch gore stuff again.. gosh.. disgusting sia.. there's this part he wrapped the girl in a sleeping bag n tie her to a tree branch w a fire burning below.. n the girl burnt to death la.. n she was screaming n screaming.... arrghhh...
haiz... 45mins more to the end of my day... tinking abt having to werk tml, jus bothers me alot la... here, i'm werking more 60 hrs per wk la.. wich is more den the allowed hrs for sum1 earning less than 2k under MOM rules n damn, no OT pay.. starting to dislike dis company.. taking advantage of ppl.. hmm.. no more comments!! argghh.. jus awaiting for e economy to pick up n b stable n i'lll start looking for anoder job... hmm.. my kakak has made a decision to quit.. haiz.. she's being used by evry1 here including the sales ppl.. me? once she's gone, i'm taking over her duties n i tink dere is no way in hell m i gonna get a pay rise... jus like my the other colleague, her workload has doubled cuz they fired sum ppl to cut cost but they nvr raise up the pay of ppl who stay bhind n werk deir ass off.. hmm.. i promised myself dat i'm nt gonna let my head b trampled by those lazy sales personnel.. my poor kakak.. she's farking stressed up la cuz she must do evryting la.. i learnt to b ignorant of tings that u dont need to noe... knowing evryting, ppl would come aft u.. dats a sad fact of life.. human make use of each oder for their own benefits... sad? well, face it! life's like dat... n we hav to go thru it! hmm.. i'm takin a day as it is... learning tings i SHOULD noe... n only dat.. no more.. =)
wait for my nxt rant,
Putri(a name i wish was mine!)
ermmm.. from the last 10 mins, i feel good.. cuz i passed out inspirational quotes for my close colleagues at werk.. looking at their stressed up faces as i passed by their work area, i guess a few words would bring a smile to them.. n so.. Being the sweet putri, i wrote on a few post-it notes quoting--"SMILE! Cuz u'll never know who falling in Love wif that Smile.." n as i passed it to dem n put it rite in front of deir eyes, well not literally, they indeed smile!!! hehe.. n i feel good cuz i made 4 ppl smile today... n a thank u is all i need... =) sweet anot?? sweet rite?? learnt it frm my syg... he wld oways sms me dat weneva he noes i'm stress at werk.. hehe..
well, i took leave yest cuz of sum family probs wich i shan't disclose over my blog... =p hmm.. ard 3, i met up w love... go catch a movie n chill n makan... we watched Friday the 13th.. man, it was gore n totally X-rated la.. omg!! Jason.. could nvr die... he's damn scary la... gg ard killing ppl cuz dey were in his "area", Camp Crystal Lake..well, if u watched the 1st version of Friday the 13th.. u wld noe hw the story goes.. well, if u donoe, i could tell u a summary rite here, rite now.. cuz i've gt time to spare... =) hmm.. started w dis boy called Jason who were born with a disfigured face.. kids at skool oways tease him n all.. n so, one day, the skool decided to bring the kids to camping at Camp Crystal Lake.. they had break time n the kids kept on teasing him n making fun of him.. the student councillors were nearby but they ignored the kids' teasing n all dat.... n so, the kids pushed him to the lake n he drowned w/o the councillors saving him cuz they din't realised that... Jason's mom learnt abt hw he drowned and she went to Camp Crystal Lake w a machete n killed omost every student counsillor.. except for one who beheaded Jason's mom b4 she got killed... unknown to her, Jason came frm the dead n saw dat incident n his mom said--"take revenge for mommy!!".. n so, Jason became the unbeatable "hero".. hehe.. i guess dats abt it la.. 2 watch the current Friday the 13th, catch it at the movie la dey...
hmmm.. i'm nvr gonna watch gore stuff again.. gosh.. disgusting sia.. there's this part he wrapped the girl in a sleeping bag n tie her to a tree branch w a fire burning below.. n the girl burnt to death la.. n she was screaming n screaming.... arrghhh...
haiz... 45mins more to the end of my day... tinking abt having to werk tml, jus bothers me alot la... here, i'm werking more 60 hrs per wk la.. wich is more den the allowed hrs for sum1 earning less than 2k under MOM rules n damn, no OT pay.. starting to dislike dis company.. taking advantage of ppl.. hmm.. no more comments!! argghh.. jus awaiting for e economy to pick up n b stable n i'lll start looking for anoder job... hmm.. my kakak has made a decision to quit.. haiz.. she's being used by evry1 here including the sales ppl.. me? once she's gone, i'm taking over her duties n i tink dere is no way in hell m i gonna get a pay rise... jus like my the other colleague, her workload has doubled cuz they fired sum ppl to cut cost but they nvr raise up the pay of ppl who stay bhind n werk deir ass off.. hmm.. i promised myself dat i'm nt gonna let my head b trampled by those lazy sales personnel.. my poor kakak.. she's farking stressed up la cuz she must do evryting la.. i learnt to b ignorant of tings that u dont need to noe... knowing evryting, ppl would come aft u.. dats a sad fact of life.. human make use of each oder for their own benefits... sad? well, face it! life's like dat... n we hav to go thru it! hmm.. i'm takin a day as it is... learning tings i SHOULD noe... n only dat.. no more.. =)
wait for my nxt rant,
Putri(a name i wish was mine!)
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- fEelinG:
bored
aaaahhhhhhh.. Wkends here alr... cant wait for sun cuz its a time for me to wake up really2 late n chill... YeAh!! n i'm heading over to ECP dis sun for a lil' cycling trip w him... wee... neways, it seems dat we r doin healthy activities nwdays during wkends.. last sun, we jus treKKed to Mcritchie rEservoir(for e HSBC Tree Top Walk!)... OMG!! it was a really damn long route la.. i omost wanna die n quit halfway thru.. bt cant cuz we r in a mid of the jungle/forest watsoeva.. My caLves were aching the nxt day i Werk n i walkd like as tho dere's somethiNg in btwn my legs.. But den, no pain, no gain!! aching==muscles built!! wee.. I already have calves muscle!! haha...But it was definitely a breath of fresh air for us... itS our 1st adventure trip n i'm hoping dere's moRE!! nxt trip wld b Bukit Timah... n soon.. Mt EVerest! hahaha.. iT took us 2 hRs++ to get to the Tree TOp Walk n the view Was breathtaking..
thIs wHole week Have been slow @ first n its startS to get cRazy.. esp today!! Like dEre r TonS of tingS to do la!! hmm.. i Jus cAnt wait To get hm evryday!!
well, hav u heard abt dis New sTore UNIQLO? 1st branch @ Tampines 1(new Shpg Ctr @ Tampines) , 2nd wld b @ ION Orch.. Ermm.. it seems dat ppl r gg crazy for deir StuFf.. i Heard Dey sell goOd n afFordAble stUFF! He Passed bY a few dAys back n hE saY e CroWd was crAzy... wahh.. wonder hW gD deir sTuff is... mite B gg dere Once my pay ComEs in dis mth...
The mth of May... wAh.. mY aunt's b'dae, mOther's Day, His b'dAE.. alot sia to spend.. n noT forgetTing my TP.. wee.. plan to rent a car for a wk if i pass that TP... hehehe.. onlY 2 weEks more tiL the mtH of may.. Jus Tinking abt it, giVes me e Jitters cuz of hw tiMe flieS really2 fast.. Its omosT mid of the Yr... n Soon 2010... haiZ...
doNnoe y i tink too much abt e FutuRe dEse daYs.. isiT a sign i'm gEttinG old?? arGGHhhhhh.. hELP!!!!!
hahahaha..
well, till den..
thIs wHole week Have been slow @ first n its startS to get cRazy.. esp today!! Like dEre r TonS of tingS to do la!! hmm.. i Jus cAnt wait To get hm evryday!!
well, hav u heard abt dis New sTore UNIQLO? 1st branch @ Tampines 1(new Shpg Ctr @ Tampines) , 2nd wld b @ ION Orch.. Ermm.. it seems dat ppl r gg crazy for deir StuFf.. i Heard Dey sell goOd n afFordAble stUFF! He Passed bY a few dAys back n hE saY e CroWd was crAzy... wahh.. wonder hW gD deir sTuff is... mite B gg dere Once my pay ComEs in dis mth...
The mth of May... wAh.. mY aunt's b'dae, mOther's Day, His b'dAE.. alot sia to spend.. n noT forgetTing my TP.. wee.. plan to rent a car for a wk if i pass that TP... hehehe.. onlY 2 weEks more tiL the mtH of may.. Jus Tinking abt it, giVes me e Jitters cuz of hw tiMe flieS really2 fast.. Its omosT mid of the Yr... n Soon 2010... haiZ...
doNnoe y i tink too much abt e FutuRe dEse daYs.. isiT a sign i'm gEttinG old?? arGGHhhhhh.. hELP!!!!!
hahahaha..
well, till den..
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- fEelinG:
annoyed
i don get it... if u noe me, u noe hw my bf is like n hw i'm like n i mean physically.... i noe he's big like pooh bear n all.. n i'm small n all.. i jus don get it y ppl wld b bodered by dat fact!! i'm frigging pissed cuz one of colleague asked me weder e guy who pickd me up yest at werk was my bf.,. i said ya n he farking luff.. like ultimately luff loudly.. hw insensitve can dat stupid B be? n he say hw cum a beautiful gal like u b w him.. n he continue luffing n at dat moment of time, i jus feel heartbroken n angry cuz all i wanna do is slap him hard across his face... wen me n bf go out, ppl esp guys wld look at us n giv us that look, u noe... argghh!! bt, dat i dun care.. i'm only bodered abt e fact that my colleague luff aloud like dat.. tell me, isit wrong to date a guy like dat?? jus cuz of his physical attributes, i shldnt giv him a chance.? for me.. weneva i go out w him, i dun care wat ppl say or wat kinda look dey giv us... who cares wat oders tink wen i noe he treats me best amongst dose handsome lookin dudes who r farking egoistic..
arrgghhhhhh!!!!
arrgghhhhhh!!!!
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- fEelinG: angry
Love dis Cammie.. altho its nt an SLR, but.. i fell in love w it at first sight!! n the fact it cld shoot 15fps(frames per sec) n 24x zoom.. it just sounds like an SLR.. hahaha.. mebe gr8 for an amateur like me..
i asked myself dis qn as i enterd e 3rd mth of our r/s... do i wanna b w sum1 who loves me more den i cld ever love him? i realised as i weigh e tings i did for him n wat he did for me.. its a vast difference... he, wld do anyting for me.. n dat of coz does nt include askin him to jump off e building! haha.. me, i'm abit toned dwn for dis r/s.. i wasnt as enthu or as crazy as i was in my previous one.. prolly cuz i don c y i shld b like dat wen in the end, the result is hurting.. hmm.. for dis r/s, i'm taking a step at a time.. i'm nt tinking wher we're gg n hw we're gg.. to me, as long as, he treats me n my family w respect, dat is gd enuf.. cuz notting else matters..yeah, i oways tell my fren to find sum1 rich, bt wld money reali bring u happines??? money==power.. dats true.. bt w/o love, even being the richest man in the wrld, u'd live in misery.. dats wat he told me.. cuz he noe hw materialistic i can b at times.. =) my mom is nt hoping for sum prince for me.. she said as long as i noe he's the rite man dat can lead me and my kids to the rite track in religion terms, she has no qualms abt him cuz ulitmately, i'm e one staying w him.. my mom is definitely my no.1 love forever cuz her love is priceless.. n no amt of money or no amt of LV bags cld tk me away frm her... i realised den dat the richest person is sum1 who's surrounded by ppl who genuinely loves him even if he's poor or cashless.... i realised dat the simplest tings in life is wat made us smile evryday.. for example simple gestures frm my mom is wen i've run out value for my card n i called her to buy top-up card for me, she wld willingly buy it n call me to tell the digits so i cld top up my card.. i love my mom n i want her to hav a gd life cuz i've seen hw she suffers being a single parent bringin me n my bro up n giving us wateva we want w/o qualms...
ok, i'm getting out of point for my topic.. hehe.. ok.. so, i told him dat i realised dat he love me more den i cld eva love him.. n he replied, "in life, isn't it a blessing to be loved by sum1 who loves u more den u cld love him?".. i tot, yap, it is indeed a blessing.. bt my fear is wat if.. wat if i hurt him.. i donoe hw.. so far, its been nice w him.. lotsa laughter n jks all ard.. for nw, i refuse to tink abt the future cuz i wan to tk 1 step at a time... love... is a wonderful feeling.. to be loved.. equates to heavenly...
signing off,
me... =D
ok, i'm getting out of point for my topic.. hehe.. ok.. so, i told him dat i realised dat he love me more den i cld eva love him.. n he replied, "in life, isn't it a blessing to be loved by sum1 who loves u more den u cld love him?".. i tot, yap, it is indeed a blessing.. bt my fear is wat if.. wat if i hurt him.. i donoe hw.. so far, its been nice w him.. lotsa laughter n jks all ard.. for nw, i refuse to tink abt the future cuz i wan to tk 1 step at a time... love... is a wonderful feeling.. to be loved.. equates to heavenly...
signing off,
me... =D
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- fEelinG:
creative - sOunD of The bEats:its al abt u-Mcfly
it's already the 2nd week of march... gosh! time flies by real fast.. i rmbrd celebrating yr 2009 a while ago n wen i woke dis morn, i realised its been alr e 3rd mth of e calendar.. it scares me n gives me e shudder wen i tink abt hw fast time reali flies.. argh!! naz's wedding is on the 22nd.. she's alr 25 ..she n her husband to be r a perfect match! i rmbrd askin her once, hw do u noe he's e one? i'll oways ask dis to any of my frens getting married or engaged.. she replied--> "to me, the one is the same person as you r, jus dat he's a diff gender.." it got me tinking at dat time, is dat e real definition of it? to b w sum1 who is you, jus of e diff gender.. i rmbr, i was envious of deir love.. she was a pretty n fashionable lady n he was a cute n fashionable too.. dey compliment each oder real well... in any ways, i wish dem best of luck into steppin to a whole new life n may ALLAH bless them wif lotsa love n may dey stay 2geder till e end.. Amin!
now.. to find sum1 who's e same as u are... wldnt dat b hard??? i mean naz's lucky she found him.. i personally feel dat its hard to find dat particular sum1.... i donoe.. mebe its hard cuz i've set aside sum "requirements" for the one.. of coz, in life, u nid sum "guidelines" to put u in the rite track.. rite? me, being a virgoan, i've oways like my future planned.. i wont like it if all of a sudden, it changes... be it a lil' outing or date, i like it to b planned.. i dun like e feeling of lost... feeling like u've gt nowher to go... well, like sum ppl say, the one cld jus b beside u... =)
2 wks more, n we r alr in the 3rd mth of our r/s.. al hamdulillah, wan n me r doin gr8 so far.. i learnt a lil' bit of his jokes and nonsense n i hit it back at him once he "bully" me.. haha.. we oways had a gr8 luff weneva we go out.. he's finding a job now, so, he feels kinda stress dese days.. its tough for him to find a job, cuz employers r very demanding, i tell u.. i checkd out jobsDB n watnot.. most companies r lookin for sum1 w degree.. he's nt choosy abt a particular job.. bt, he has a cert on Safety Coordinator wich he took like 9 yrs ago, credits to his dad.. His dad used to bug him to find a job rite aft dat course n he was insistent not to.. wel, he say, he kinda regret it now.. altho tings may seem gr8 btwn us, deep dwn in me, i donoe weder we wld last... cuz he's nt the guy dat i've "guidelines" for.. i donoe.. he's a wonderful guy.. sum1 i cld tok to easily abt anyting.. anyting at all... bt, i feel insecure financially.. i clearly know dat in a marriage, w/o proper financial and proper religion, e marriage wont work.. dats wat happen to my parents.. dey divorced cuz of money.. constantly quarelling cuz of money.. dis is sumting i wanna avoid.. cuz i noe wat my parents went thru n i nvr wan to go thru it in my life... money shldnt b e start of a quarrel btwn a couple.. its jus a material ting; y let a material ting destroy ur happiness? i jus dun get it.. bt, i noe he's a hardworking guy n i noe he wld work hard to mk me happy.. i mean he wld do anyting to mk me happy.. it jus brings a smile to my face to noe hw much he loves me.. bt den again, wld it last? men.. everyting is temporary w dem.. *shrugs my shoulder
well... gues who i saw over e wkend?? saufee!! haha.. me n wan, were gg to eat at pastamania @ suntec.. upon reaching, e plc was full hse.. so, we decided to step in to c if any1's leaving so we cld eat.. my desire to eat @ pastamania was dere for days.. wan went towards the end n i was still in the front.. as i was browsing2, rite in frnt of me, i saw dis guy.. for a moment, i tot to myself, "damn, dis guy is familiar.." n den it hit me, its him!! i was too shock to react in any certain way, i jus turned 90 degrees n walk away slowly.. wan called to me n i jus ignored!! he followed me out n asked me wats wrong.. i said i saw saufee w dat shock look still; u noe the look w huge eyes n mouth agape.. haha.. he asked me->"shall we eat sumplc else?" i said ok.... as we walked away, he asked me, "r u ok? dont worry k, i'm here.." hmm.. sweet.. i told him e last person i eva wanna c is him cuz weneva i c him, memories of hw hurt i was wld flashback in my mind.. it wasnt abt tinking abt him.. its more to abt hw he chose to leave me crying alone n walking away.. it brings back dat sad memory... knowing me, wan started to crack sum jokes.. it was hard to laugh at 1st, bt i loosen up... den, we talked abt sumting else wich helps me distract my mind... bt, honestly, dat sad moments flash in my head e rest of e nite.. n me, being the actress dat i was, pretended dat it dint hurt me one bit.. bt, i guess my acting was too lousy dis time.. cuz at times, he wld look at me, giv me dat assurance look dat i'm fine n i'll b fine... tx syg... for understanding n for giving me alot of assurance n loving me.. so, now i noe wat it feels like to chance upon ur ex!! hahaha...
well, i'm a busy2 woman dis wk.. tues, pract.. wed, out w wan.. thurs, out w jas.. fri, pract.. sat, out w razi n fauzi till wee hrs of morn.. sun, out w phyo n deepa.. my week's filled up w stuff.. xcept 2day.. haha..
cant wait to see u guys!!
signing off,
msY
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- fEelinG: sleepy
Valentine's day is only days away... teens n young adults w raging hormones await dis day to celebrate the love shared with the special sum or among their frens.. however, in my religion, its unethical for us to celebrate this day cuz dis date, thousands of our brothers n sisters r murdered centuries ago.. dats y Saudi Arabia, an Islamic country, bans dis day n the black mkt for roses n chocs r in demand.. In Saudi Arabia, stalls of any sorts or even any1 r nt allowed to hang anyting red or do anyting associated w red for the 14th Feb.. Some may call it ridiculous.. bt, each to his own, i suppose... dats wat my darls told me.. i used to celebrate V-day n i had no idea dat we r nt supposed to celebrate it.. bt, nw i noe dat we cant n the reason y.. bt den again, me n him, we r xchanging prezzies!! yeah.. we call it our Love Day... hehe...
to me, it seems V-day is jus anoder day.. i feel dat as we grow older, the tendency to celebrate or rather e "raging" hormones r getting lesser... i dun even look forward to my birfdae!! cuz i cant stand the fact that i'm nearing 1/4 of century few yrs dwn e road.. n i mean few, as in real few... arrgghh!! getting to dat stage in life means the whole family will ask u non-stop dat huge qn--"when r u getting married??" arrgghh!! dats y i try to avoid family gatherings n stuff unless w my close2 aunties... dey jus don get it... at dis stage in our r/s, our honeymoon period, evryting is nice, evryting bad can b tolerated... its nt like i cant wait for e honeymoon period to b over.. jus dat i wan e sad reality to come into our life... so, we cld c weder we cld live w one anoder.. weder our love cld really conquer the shittest tings in life, n it does nt include UNFAITHFULNESS, aite?? unfaithfulness, sumting i cant tolerate cuz if sum1 dares to do it once, he'll do it again n again n again.... hmm.... i guess.. all men r the same?? agree?? hmm... for nw, i'll jus enjoy the sweetness of the fruit that we bore, LOVE.. *cheesy... yap, i've been real cheesy.. smack me, quick!! hahaha..
V-day is nt only for lovers.. its oso a day to remind us the frenships we have, had n will have.. so, here i go..:
- my JSPS frens: we've been frens for omost 17yrs, sum even 19yrs.. last yr, we dint manage to go out for Hari Raya outing.. so, i hope dat we'll mk it dis yr.. i miss u guys, i reali do.. tx for being the first few frens in my life n tolerating the fact dat i was a very2 shy n quiet girl.. hehe..
- my CBS frens: my closest 3 best frens, Shidah, Bhavani n Rachel... tx guys for goin thru the 4 yrs w me.. tolerating my nonsense n me tolerating urs..hehe.. we've lost contact, indeed.. bt, if u chance upon dis blog, do leave me a msg... to the oders that matters, being thru the period wher we start to develop, mentally n physically, its been nice being dere w u guys n gals alike.. u guys made me who i am nw.. dat lil' crazy girl.. turn me frm sum2 quiet n shy to sum1 whos crazy n loud!! hehe..
- my ITE frens: my closest 2 galfrens/lesbians: Jas n Ah Hwee.. tx babe.. u guys have been thru thick n thin w me n dere is nvr a day dat passes by w/o me tinking abt u.. ur presence made me feel alive n made me realise dat dere's actuali sum1 i cld trust in ITE n even now.. our frenship blossoms like love, huh?? i love u babes.. i reali do.... u babes being dere for me thru dat tough times made me realise the importance of dis frenship.. to the oder guys in my class: guys!! i miss u many2 ler.. its been so long since we met n thruout my entire life, ITE life is the best cuz of u guys.. u guys made it happy n happening in class.. n i wld nvr trade a grp of classmates like u for anyting else in tis world.. to sasau: even tho, we r notting to each oder nw, ur presence in my life before made me aware of alot tings.. made me open up to alot of ting.. made me realise dat 2 ppl can actually fall in love.. bt, too bad, eternal love is jus nt btwn us.. we change as we grew up.. tanx for being the closest fren i've eva had in ITE n forward.. tx alot for evryting, reali...
- my Poly Frens: my 2 closest galfrens: Phyo n Deepa... tx babes... having u in my life made me realise the good natured ppl dat this world had.. u guys have tolerated my nonsense.. n i noe me being in ur life, i taught u alot of stuff dat i shldnt have told to innocent gals like u.. haha.. tx babe.. for being dere no matter weder u're bz or doin sumting else at that moment.. i love u too.. hugs n kissess!! hehe... to the rest: tx alot for the frenship n for tolerating me, i noe i'm the nastiest babe among the ladies.. oways bully the guys, or rather boyss.. bt, we r still frens rite?? hehe...
I LOVE YOU, ALWAYS
signing off,
.ms sweet YAnti.
to me, it seems V-day is jus anoder day.. i feel dat as we grow older, the tendency to celebrate or rather e "raging" hormones r getting lesser... i dun even look forward to my birfdae!! cuz i cant stand the fact that i'm nearing 1/4 of century few yrs dwn e road.. n i mean few, as in real few... arrgghh!! getting to dat stage in life means the whole family will ask u non-stop dat huge qn--"when r u getting married??" arrgghh!! dats y i try to avoid family gatherings n stuff unless w my close2 aunties... dey jus don get it... at dis stage in our r/s, our honeymoon period, evryting is nice, evryting bad can b tolerated... its nt like i cant wait for e honeymoon period to b over.. jus dat i wan e sad reality to come into our life... so, we cld c weder we cld live w one anoder.. weder our love cld really conquer the shittest tings in life, n it does nt include UNFAITHFULNESS, aite?? unfaithfulness, sumting i cant tolerate cuz if sum1 dares to do it once, he'll do it again n again n again.... hmm.... i guess.. all men r the same?? agree?? hmm... for nw, i'll jus enjoy the sweetness of the fruit that we bore, LOVE.. *cheesy... yap, i've been real cheesy.. smack me, quick!! hahaha..
V-day is nt only for lovers.. its oso a day to remind us the frenships we have, had n will have.. so, here i go..:
- my JSPS frens: we've been frens for omost 17yrs, sum even 19yrs.. last yr, we dint manage to go out for Hari Raya outing.. so, i hope dat we'll mk it dis yr.. i miss u guys, i reali do.. tx for being the first few frens in my life n tolerating the fact dat i was a very2 shy n quiet girl.. hehe..
- my CBS frens: my closest 3 best frens, Shidah, Bhavani n Rachel... tx guys for goin thru the 4 yrs w me.. tolerating my nonsense n me tolerating urs..hehe.. we've lost contact, indeed.. bt, if u chance upon dis blog, do leave me a msg... to the oders that matters, being thru the period wher we start to develop, mentally n physically, its been nice being dere w u guys n gals alike.. u guys made me who i am nw.. dat lil' crazy girl.. turn me frm sum2 quiet n shy to sum1 whos crazy n loud!! hehe..
- my ITE frens: my closest 2 galfrens/lesbians: Jas n Ah Hwee.. tx babe.. u guys have been thru thick n thin w me n dere is nvr a day dat passes by w/o me tinking abt u.. ur presence made me feel alive n made me realise dat dere's actuali sum1 i cld trust in ITE n even now.. our frenship blossoms like love, huh?? i love u babes.. i reali do.... u babes being dere for me thru dat tough times made me realise the importance of dis frenship.. to the oder guys in my class: guys!! i miss u many2 ler.. its been so long since we met n thruout my entire life, ITE life is the best cuz of u guys.. u guys made it happy n happening in class.. n i wld nvr trade a grp of classmates like u for anyting else in tis world.. to sasau: even tho, we r notting to each oder nw, ur presence in my life before made me aware of alot tings.. made me open up to alot of ting.. made me realise dat 2 ppl can actually fall in love.. bt, too bad, eternal love is jus nt btwn us.. we change as we grew up.. tanx for being the closest fren i've eva had in ITE n forward.. tx alot for evryting, reali...
- my Poly Frens: my 2 closest galfrens: Phyo n Deepa... tx babes... having u in my life made me realise the good natured ppl dat this world had.. u guys have tolerated my nonsense.. n i noe me being in ur life, i taught u alot of stuff dat i shldnt have told to innocent gals like u.. haha.. tx babe.. for being dere no matter weder u're bz or doin sumting else at that moment.. i love u too.. hugs n kissess!! hehe... to the rest: tx alot for the frenship n for tolerating me, i noe i'm the nastiest babe among the ladies.. oways bully the guys, or rather boyss.. bt, we r still frens rite?? hehe...
I LOVE YOU, ALWAYS
signing off,
.ms sweet YAnti.
dear ALL,
its been omost a mth of nt bloggin on my sweet blog.. i'm jus too bz.. well, occupied w job n being in a relationship sure tks me away frm certain things in my life... bt, i'm nvr gonna stop blogging... cuz its e only medium i cld xpress myself freely w/o anyone judging me or commenting on my shits...
ABt Being in a R/S--> i'm reaching the 1 mth mark nxt wk... well, so far so gd... its nice to b able to feel "honeymoon" period again.. i nvr tot, tat i cld eva love sum1 again.. LOve.. yap.. =) hmm.... he's taught me alot of stuff n got me reali xcited abt one ting!!-- bikES!!! esp Vespa!! i'm digging vespa.. OMG!! i'm totally turned on jus by looking at a vespa bike, minus the rider of coz.. hehe... i'm so motivated to finish up my nvr ending car practicals and get myself a bike license nxt.. cuz i wanna own a vespa.. a reali cool vintage one... well, enuf abt bikes... abt him, nxt... he's nvr the psycho that i tot or my gfs tot... cuz seriously, he's totally different nw.. ultimate freedom for me... cuz he understands.. i love him for jus being him... =) simply said. FULLSTOP. maybe, i wldnt know what to xpect wen the "honeymoon" period is over.. bt, i'm prepared.. w his armour n sword cuz he's the knight in rusty armor n i'm his sweet lil' princess... hahahahha.. i noe.. lame.. =)
ABt mE--> i'm doing gd so far, alhamdulillah... my time's basically occupied w werk(mostly), my family, my boyfie... basically,i've been up n goin non-stop these past few mths... wich is gd cuz tis adrenalin rush keeps me happy n keeps me up on my toes all the time.. bt i noe dere will come a time wen i get so worn out by all these, dat i cld practically faint.. hehe.. well, as long as i'm standing strong n wif my family backing me up, i believe i can go thru any shits in life!! yeah!!! hahaha... i'm happy w dis company tho.. ppl here r really nice n dey do nt create a stressful environment.. basically, every1's like a family here... we joke n laugh all day, quarrel all day n watnot... =) oder den long werking hrs, dis job is pretty cool n i mite stay for a while here to gain xperience.... n of coz to hav money to get married!! i'm alr 20++ gazillion yrs.. haha.. i've gt only a few gazillion yrs before reachin my target to get married n start a family w the ONE.. as i age, my dreams start to become more realistic.. wen i was much2 younger before 20s, i oways dreamt of getting my 1st million b4 getting married... well, unless i struck lottery, dere's no way in hell dat i'm gonna get a million nw esp w the way i spent my money on shopping!!! SHOPPING diva is the devil in me... argghhh.. i cant control!! i cant control!! hehehehe.. well, i guess i have to huh?? hmm.. so, basically, life's been gd to me and i'm grateful to HIM for giving me each day to live and making me feel the reality of life..
hmm... dats abt it i guess... well, i'll nvr stop praying for u my dear frens.... tanx for being in my life n dere is nvr a day dat goes by dat i don tink abt hw u guys r.. really....
hugs n kisses to u...
its been omost a mth of nt bloggin on my sweet blog.. i'm jus too bz.. well, occupied w job n being in a relationship sure tks me away frm certain things in my life... bt, i'm nvr gonna stop blogging... cuz its e only medium i cld xpress myself freely w/o anyone judging me or commenting on my shits...
ABt Being in a R/S--> i'm reaching the 1 mth mark nxt wk... well, so far so gd... its nice to b able to feel "honeymoon" period again.. i nvr tot, tat i cld eva love sum1 again.. LOve.. yap.. =) hmm.... he's taught me alot of stuff n got me reali xcited abt one ting!!-- bikES!!! esp Vespa!! i'm digging vespa.. OMG!! i'm totally turned on jus by looking at a vespa bike, minus the rider of coz.. hehe... i'm so motivated to finish up my nvr ending car practicals and get myself a bike license nxt.. cuz i wanna own a vespa.. a reali cool vintage one... well, enuf abt bikes... abt him, nxt... he's nvr the psycho that i tot or my gfs tot... cuz seriously, he's totally different nw.. ultimate freedom for me... cuz he understands.. i love him for jus being him... =) simply said. FULLSTOP. maybe, i wldnt know what to xpect wen the "honeymoon" period is over.. bt, i'm prepared.. w his armour n sword cuz he's the knight in rusty armor n i'm his sweet lil' princess... hahahahha.. i noe.. lame.. =)
ABt mE--> i'm doing gd so far, alhamdulillah... my time's basically occupied w werk(mostly), my family, my boyfie... basically,i've been up n goin non-stop these past few mths... wich is gd cuz tis adrenalin rush keeps me happy n keeps me up on my toes all the time.. bt i noe dere will come a time wen i get so worn out by all these, dat i cld practically faint.. hehe.. well, as long as i'm standing strong n wif my family backing me up, i believe i can go thru any shits in life!! yeah!!! hahaha... i'm happy w dis company tho.. ppl here r really nice n dey do nt create a stressful environment.. basically, every1's like a family here... we joke n laugh all day, quarrel all day n watnot... =) oder den long werking hrs, dis job is pretty cool n i mite stay for a while here to gain xperience.... n of coz to hav money to get married!! i'm alr 20++ gazillion yrs.. haha.. i've gt only a few gazillion yrs before reachin my target to get married n start a family w the ONE.. as i age, my dreams start to become more realistic.. wen i was much2 younger before 20s, i oways dreamt of getting my 1st million b4 getting married... well, unless i struck lottery, dere's no way in hell dat i'm gonna get a million nw esp w the way i spent my money on shopping!!! SHOPPING diva is the devil in me... argghhh.. i cant control!! i cant control!! hehehehe.. well, i guess i have to huh?? hmm.. so, basically, life's been gd to me and i'm grateful to HIM for giving me each day to live and making me feel the reality of life..
hmm... dats abt it i guess... well, i'll nvr stop praying for u my dear frens.... tanx for being in my life n dere is nvr a day dat goes by dat i don tink abt hw u guys r.. really....
hugs n kisses to u...
- whEr i'M at?:werk
- fEelinG: complacent
- sOunD of The bEats:1234 by Plain Whte T's
its the 24th dec 08 today.. n a day more to x'mas wich equates to holiday wich equates to no werk n hav fun day.. hahaha.. cant wait as i'm meetin him dat day.. gonna catch bedtime stories.. xchangin x'mas prezzies.. i've bot him the perfect prezzie for him, i hope.. he has been looking for a mini violin for yrs.. n i saw it n bot it wen i saw dat violin.. he said he's been searchin omost everywher for it.. well, i've found it.. n i bet he'll be suprised!! cant wait to catch his xpression.. will sly-ly tk a vid of dat moment.. hehe...
a lil update abt him n me... we've been goin out evry wk, dats wat u noe rite? haha... well.. last wk, we had our sitting dwn n tok moments at marina barrage.. btw, marina barrage.. damn beautiful n i love the environment dere... hw to get dere u mite ask? i'm unsure abt public cuz i don c any bustop or watsoeva.. best wld b by own trspt.. u guys shld go... we practically sat dere frm 9.30pm to omost 1am.. n we dint even realise the time... luckily.. the nxt day was my off day... neways, we talked alot abt stuff... he asked me wat r we to each oder... i jus replied-->"frenples?" wats frenples, u mite ask? in btwn frens n couples... hehe.. ok, u must b wondering y we r nt a couple still.. blame it on me n my fear... i'm too afraid to tk the nxt step w him.. i want to... bt, someting's holding me back... n i'm nt sure wat.. oh well, one ting i love abt him... he's shown me dat he's really interested abt wats happening in my life n wat i've been doin n all dat... tanx..
previous sun, i met w the gals.. phyo n deepa.. gdness.. deepa has lost wt n phyo remains the same, xcept more sexier n a true fashionista.. hehe. me, i gues i've gain wt the last time i saw dem during the fastin mth!! arrgg!! i feel fat n i look fat!! arrghh.. bt, wth? i've gt sumone who loves me n accept me n my flaws.. tanx awk.. ok, cant stop toking abt him!! hahahaha....deepa asked me y do i like him wen he's dat big size, omost twice den me... i tot for awhile... i said-->"i've nvr consider sum1 cuz of hw dey look on the outside.. to me, the inside is more important cuz dat will determine weder i'll b or i can b happy w him.. he's given me the confidence to love n accept him w open arms.. to me, of all the guys i dated n i noe, he's the nicest, sweetest n e 1st dat made me laugh so hard wen i met him for the 1st time.." i jus hope dat i wont hav to go thru anoder emotional painful moment.. n i hope u guys wld pray for me so... me n the gals.. we hung till nearing 12 midnite n it was e 1st time.. deepa's mom has been calling her n all... i love dem so.. n no, i'm nvr gonna trade dem for any guy in tis world... n all my close gfs too... i love u gals too... kisses!!
x'mas.. any plans u guys made?
a lil update abt him n me... we've been goin out evry wk, dats wat u noe rite? haha... well.. last wk, we had our sitting dwn n tok moments at marina barrage.. btw, marina barrage.. damn beautiful n i love the environment dere... hw to get dere u mite ask? i'm unsure abt public cuz i don c any bustop or watsoeva.. best wld b by own trspt.. u guys shld go... we practically sat dere frm 9.30pm to omost 1am.. n we dint even realise the time... luckily.. the nxt day was my off day... neways, we talked alot abt stuff... he asked me wat r we to each oder... i jus replied-->"frenples?" wats frenples, u mite ask? in btwn frens n couples... hehe.. ok, u must b wondering y we r nt a couple still.. blame it on me n my fear... i'm too afraid to tk the nxt step w him.. i want to... bt, someting's holding me back... n i'm nt sure wat.. oh well, one ting i love abt him... he's shown me dat he's really interested abt wats happening in my life n wat i've been doin n all dat... tanx..
previous sun, i met w the gals.. phyo n deepa.. gdness.. deepa has lost wt n phyo remains the same, xcept more sexier n a true fashionista.. hehe. me, i gues i've gain wt the last time i saw dem during the fastin mth!! arrgg!! i feel fat n i look fat!! arrghh.. bt, wth? i've gt sumone who loves me n accept me n my flaws.. tanx awk.. ok, cant stop toking abt him!! hahahaha....deepa asked me y do i like him wen he's dat big size, omost twice den me... i tot for awhile... i said-->"i've nvr consider sum1 cuz of hw dey look on the outside.. to me, the inside is more important cuz dat will determine weder i'll b or i can b happy w him.. he's given me the confidence to love n accept him w open arms.. to me, of all the guys i dated n i noe, he's the nicest, sweetest n e 1st dat made me laugh so hard wen i met him for the 1st time.." i jus hope dat i wont hav to go thru anoder emotional painful moment.. n i hope u guys wld pray for me so... me n the gals.. we hung till nearing 12 midnite n it was e 1st time.. deepa's mom has been calling her n all... i love dem so.. n no, i'm nvr gonna trade dem for any guy in tis world... n all my close gfs too... i love u gals too... kisses!!
x'mas.. any plans u guys made?
- whEr i'M at?:werk
- fEelinG:
crazy
well.. its tues and e start of the wk for us who's working.. kids r having their hols.. gosh, i envy dem cuz dey can wake up l8.. arrggh.. miss those times wen i'm skooling esp ite n poly life wher timing isnt the same evryday... bt, wat can i do? life has to go on.. i gues i'm at a stage in my life wher i'm slogging my guts out jus to hav the life i eva wanted.. bt, insyaallah.. tings wld turn out for the better...
i had a gr8 sunday!! wat abt u? my sunday was spent at JB, City Square... i practically spent the whole day dere.. he picked me up at my blk n we proceeded to wdlands chkpoint.. gosh, dere were many ppl.. bt, at least the chkpoint was airconditioned and spacey... aft dat, we took bus to the malaysian chkpt.. it was CRAZIEE!!! the space was crammed n ppl were practically squeezed jus to get to the border.. i was feeling faint wen he managed to find anoder new queue dat was jus formd by the officers.. luckily he asked ard.. hehe.. we managed to pass thru the chkpoint w/o any scratches!! hehe.. dat was an exageration! once, we managed to pass thru, we gt ourselves drinks.. thirsty? yap! humid? yap! bt, den again, the day was jus starting.. we watched 2 movies at Cathay.. Twilight and Selamat Pagi Cinta.. he wanted to catch 3 movies, bt i was afraid it wld b jammed up at the causeway if we were to go hm l8 at nite.. so, we ended watching 2... Twilight-- gerek!! the vampire; damn handsome n cool acted by Robert Pattinson.. ok, he's my nxt victim!! hahaha.. he was reali2 cute.. nvr knew vampires wld b as gd n as cool n as handsome as he is.. gals, u shld watch tis show if u hav a ting for suave, hot-looking guys... hehe... ok, i'm bent on buying the Twilight novel.. ther's 4 epilogues, i heard.. well, shopping is definitely a must wen dropping by city square n esp wen i gt my pay last wk.. i bot a skirt, pants n sandals... totalling to nt more den RM150.. me n him.. we calculated at the end of the day n realised we spent ard RM280 for our shopping, food n movies.. hahaha.. well, bt it was a definitely a gr8 sun.. tanx to him for dis gr8 idea..we went hm ard 9pm.. i was expecting a huge n crazy crowd, bt to my relief, dere wasnt a huge crowd.. so, the way back hm went smoothly... dere wasnt any pushing or watsoeva... we reached s'pore at 9.20pm.. fast huh?? the last time i went, we went hm at 8 n reached s'pore ard 11pm... the nite was young, so we lepak at mcd at amk park.. jus buy drinks n cakes.. i was physically n mentally tired at dat pt of time.. so, he sent me hm.. we had our 1st hug.. it was nice n i feel secured wen he hugged me... hehe.. =p
Love-- i once said dat i'll nvr wan to giv my whole heart to sum1 else.. bt, hw do i do dat? wen all dese r feelings.. feelings dat r sumtimes uncontrollable... its a wonderful feeling to b given a 2nd chance by Allah to feel wats love like... i can only tank HIM for opening up my heart to someone i nvr knew cld love me more den i do to him..
i had a gr8 sunday!! wat abt u? my sunday was spent at JB, City Square... i practically spent the whole day dere.. he picked me up at my blk n we proceeded to wdlands chkpoint.. gosh, dere were many ppl.. bt, at least the chkpoint was airconditioned and spacey... aft dat, we took bus to the malaysian chkpt.. it was CRAZIEE!!! the space was crammed n ppl were practically squeezed jus to get to the border.. i was feeling faint wen he managed to find anoder new queue dat was jus formd by the officers.. luckily he asked ard.. hehe.. we managed to pass thru the chkpoint w/o any scratches!! hehe.. dat was an exageration! once, we managed to pass thru, we gt ourselves drinks.. thirsty? yap! humid? yap! bt, den again, the day was jus starting.. we watched 2 movies at Cathay.. Twilight and Selamat Pagi Cinta.. he wanted to catch 3 movies, bt i was afraid it wld b jammed up at the causeway if we were to go hm l8 at nite.. so, we ended watching 2... Twilight-- gerek!! the vampire; damn handsome n cool acted by Robert Pattinson.. ok, he's my nxt victim!! hahaha.. he was reali2 cute.. nvr knew vampires wld b as gd n as cool n as handsome as he is.. gals, u shld watch tis show if u hav a ting for suave, hot-looking guys... hehe... ok, i'm bent on buying the Twilight novel.. ther's 4 epilogues, i heard.. well, shopping is definitely a must wen dropping by city square n esp wen i gt my pay last wk.. i bot a skirt, pants n sandals... totalling to nt more den RM150.. me n him.. we calculated at the end of the day n realised we spent ard RM280 for our shopping, food n movies.. hahaha.. well, bt it was a definitely a gr8 sun.. tanx to him for dis gr8 idea..we went hm ard 9pm.. i was expecting a huge n crazy crowd, bt to my relief, dere wasnt a huge crowd.. so, the way back hm went smoothly... dere wasnt any pushing or watsoeva... we reached s'pore at 9.20pm.. fast huh?? the last time i went, we went hm at 8 n reached s'pore ard 11pm... the nite was young, so we lepak at mcd at amk park.. jus buy drinks n cakes.. i was physically n mentally tired at dat pt of time.. so, he sent me hm.. we had our 1st hug.. it was nice n i feel secured wen he hugged me... hehe.. =p
Love-- i once said dat i'll nvr wan to giv my whole heart to sum1 else.. bt, hw do i do dat? wen all dese r feelings.. feelings dat r sumtimes uncontrollable... its a wonderful feeling to b given a 2nd chance by Allah to feel wats love like... i can only tank HIM for opening up my heart to someone i nvr knew cld love me more den i do to him..
- whEr i'M at?:werk
yap.. i'm starting to fall in love w.. sum1.. =) he's given me the confidence dat i can b in a r/s n love sum1 like hw i did before.. his patience n sincerity is wat attracted me to him.. n he's the nicest, i tell you... its been awhile since i bot a top jus so dat i'll b meeting him tml.. making myself up pretty jus to c him... the feelings dat i'm having, its great.. reali great... i nvr once tot i'll start fallin in luv w sum1 much less, him... i kinda detest him cuz i felt he was trying too hard n pushing me last time... bt, he's changed.. n i'm glad he did... i met him yest n he brot me to an ice cream parlour at Serene Centre.. it was a nice evening,, aft dat, we went clarke quay n jus sat by the singapore river toking.. i love to jus sit sumwher nice n quiet n tok w him.. cuz he's teh kinda person who nvr judge u frm wateva u say or wateva u di in the past.. a gd listener... i love him.. yes, i do... he's jus waiting for me to say "Yes" to him... hmm.. nw dats a prob... wen wld it be? i myself am nt sure..
ok, i'm damn hungry k.. had 2 pcs of my mom's love curry puff in the morn w milk.. tinking of eating at wc during lunch.. bt, damn.. come lunch time, it was raining cats n dogs!! wich equates to the troublesome of having to walk so far in tis shitty weather.. so, i dcided to jus go to the nearest canteen, wartsila.. went dere.. makcik tells me that the white rice is nt yet cooked!! nt yet wen its like alr 12.30pm.. wich means i hav to wait long if i wanna wait.. ok, disappointed, yes i am!! jus bot hot milo.. went back feeling sad cuz i cldnt get any food to fill my alr grumbling stomach.. n so, i dcided to munch on the marie biscuits that i bot 2 wks ago.. munch n munch n munch.. bt, i'm stil hungry now.. i was tinking of mcd, kfc, mee rebus, long john... ok, i'm delusional alr due to tis hunger!! hahaha... its ok, i tell myself.. i can lose all tis water retention tat's adding to my body weight.. i wanna go hm n get FOOD!! in need of dat tho..... =(
- whEr i'M at?:werk
- fEelinG: annoyed
